stumbling blindly in the dark

well, up until a few minutes ago, my day had been spent with a completly clouded mind. i kept staring blankly into space, not focusing on anything unless i had to. my mind was a blur and i couldnt come up with any solid thoughts. i walked by stumbling a bit, and my breathing was irregular. i would call that a mental breakdown, and possibly a bit of a physical one too. so yea, i'm in a bit of a state of shock today. i cried for a little while, quite hard actually. which just adds to my unusual state. the post below tells you of the cause. i don't want to repeat it, lest i go into that state again. bye to all who care to read.