How Dare He?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

ok, this is gonna be a pretty long story so please bear with me. on tuesday night i asked Adam to call me. he said tha he would at around 10. i said, ok fine. he didn't end up calling till 10:45 or 10:50. i tried to pick up the phone as quickly as possible, so that it wouldnt wake anyone up. unfortunatly, i wasnt quick enough (the ring on my phone was really quiet so i didnt think it was acctually ringing at first) and it woke up my step-father lawrence (yes, this is the same idiot from some of my earlier posts). so he picked up the phone and said something about how late it was (i can't remember what it was exactly) and then he hung up the phone. well, Adam and i talked for a few minutes, then lawrence picks up the phone again and tells me to hang it up now and unplug it and bring it upstairs. so, Adam and i say goodbye and i take the phone upstairs. lawrence then asks me if i knew how late it was, and that people are trying to sleep. i tell him yes, but as Adam is on the other side of the country there is a 4 hour time difference. he replied by saying he didn't care where he was and that Adam should know better than that anyway. he then procedes to tell me that i have no phone (which, for those of you who know me, is NOT a big deal at all because i have a phobia of calling people) AND (this one hit me real hard) no computer for the rest of the week. i simply said "fine" and went back downstairs. i was furious! how dare he make such a decision like that without even speaking to my mom first??????? i paced back and forth for 20mins straight. all the while, wishing i could call somebody to take me out of this place. i even thought quite seriously about packing a bag and walking to Adam's house the next day. i slammed my fists against the walls a couple of times, but then i thought that if he heard it he would get mad, so i stopped. i tried to go to sleep, but i was maddened beyond belief! he had no right! finally i managed to sleep some.
the next day my mom called and asked me what had happened (apparently he hadn't told her until that morning and she was quite mad about that). i told her what i have told you now. she said that we would talk about it when she got home, but for now not to use the computer. i said fine. i then wrote a letter to Rachael expressing my outrage. later that night when mom got home and Cody was in bed, i went to have a bath to see if it could relax me some. it didn't have a chance because i could hear them from the living room arguing about it. unfortunatly i couldnt hear them clearly enough to tell what they were saying. then mom knocked on the door and asked me if i was done, and i said not really (i hadn't even washed because i was busy trying to hear them), and she told me to hurry up and come out. so i did (not as fast as i could have though). i went into the living room and mom prompted lawrence that he wanted to talk about something. he then told me about how i needed to talk more to people (out of respect no less!) and to not listen to my music in the truck when we are going on long drives, and to play with Cody more. never mind about WHY i do or don't do those things. i just need to comply with what he wants now. never mind that him and his family are thr REASON i dont talk around them. (when i was younger, everytime i would say something or show emotion they would make fun, or tell me that i was wrong, so i stopped doing it all together). and how am i supposed to magically have respect for these people that i have NO respect for??? and i'm not allowed to listen to my music??? my music is my soul! i need it! and play with Cody??????? are they insane? i have just acheived a respect level with him and now they want me to lose all i have worked for with him??? he then said that there will be no more phone calls after 9:30, and that i could take my phone back down and i could go on the computer tomorrow. i asked where my phone was, and it was by his feet. so i took it and while i was taking it he has the nerve to say "you're welcome". i was completley outraged!!!!!!!!! i said thank you as to avoid getting myself in deeper than i was, but who does he think he is??? "yes master, thank you for returning to me what you had no right or validation for taking away in the first place!" HE should be apoligizing to me for god sakes!!!!!! anyways, in case any of you were wondering why i wasnt on yesterday, this is the reason. and by the way, no more phone calls after 9:30 all, seriously. bye to all who care to read.